I hope when you come back nothing is different. I’m scared that wherever you return from your base that nothing will be the same like you said it would be. We’ve been together for two years now & I don’t want to jeopardize anything that I’ve given up for you, given to you. I told you not to leave, I told you how different everything would be like hearing your voice over the phone, or seeing your face on Skype. I know this was the best for you but I can’t help but think how we could have fixed this ourselves if you would have just let me help you. You’re too stubborn & wouldn’t let me help you find yourself.

I love you more than anyone will ever understand. People look at us and can’t believe how we even ended up together but I don’t give a shit. I’m done trying to please everyone but you. I’m with you now. This distance is killing me day by day and no one knows it but my true best friend. It’s sad to think my friends could care less what I’m going through, what I’m feeling. They could care less your thousands of miles away and they know I love you. You would think they would be here for me but they obviously have better things to do. I love you more than anything & when you get back, it’ll be an all new relationship and I’m not too sure how to take it. you’ve been there for me more than anyone else has. You’ve loved me through my worst days and you still remind me every night why I fell for you in the first place. No one understands what we have, and I’m just fine with that. I love you.

7 more weeks Scott Allen Mckenzie.